Here to ♥ u endlessly

♥ Monday, August 25, 2008

I dun wan to live anymore..

God ..open your eyes..open your ears..

why u treat me unfairly

why me you choose to have a pair of watery eyes
why me you choose to take my everything
why me you choose to be bullied by bad demons on earth

why bad ppl owiz got blessed.

no matter how hard how much i do. i will never b the best..

why they who so dear to me cant hear my scream

why bloods that links cant feel my pain

why everybody are so cold

you took away my pet who have no choice to run fr listening me. instead you help it to loose its soul fr it trapped body

the more i live , the more scary i feel in tis world.

ppl killing their own ppl, just to get wat they wan, juz to protect themselve

no doubting tat they initially kill ppl who is innocent

i owiz believe everything comes fr my own hand.

i dun fight , i cant get it..

but wat if my story of life already written by you..

you have brought me tis fate..

you bring me no happiness since my childhood.

i hate you god.

i dun believe you..

everytime i scream for you..

you can't hear me.

wat i wan

wat i've dream

you broke them into pieces

you gimme dream

and you take away fr me everytime i wake up

i'm too naive.. too stupid...too simple minded..

just kill me fast

i wish you will write my next life story like every fairy tale you told the children

i wanna become a healthy baby

with a pair of lovely loving parents

with many close happy bro sis to play together

a happy family,

a family with no stress of finance,

parents who create no worries for their child,

parents who can sacrifice for their child

parents who will listen and solve their prob.

a responsible parents i wish i have

to have many many real-real friends,
friends who don't lie,
friend who win both way,
friend who true in heart,

i dun nid a fren to please me infront and stab me behind.

a friend tat can share i wish i have.

study with no fear of failing,

study tat can fly me to place i wan,

flying result to be recognise by ppl,

and ends with a smiling shot wearing the graduation suit surrounded by my loves.

work in a favor company,

secured by high income,

happy work time with no stress but fun,

colleauge who are friends not enemy fighting for a bread or bun,

LV, GUCCI, COACH are no longer a dream,

MYVI, BENSI , Porche are no longer my dream,

Ferarri , Lamboghini, Fairlady come for me in my dream..

How i wish i can have a car tat look so sporty,

fast speeder tat makes every car around me look so turtle,

An engine sound tat vroom vroom.. furiously,
A door close with a gentle chuuup.. sound..
a sunroof like everynight i can look up the sky for a shooting star,

full spec low skirt like i scared reveal my under.
tinted glass like i'm a superstar..
police happy see my car

because can give summons
i buy summons with a teh tarik price i can go buy toto and try my luck..
toto no win try dai ma cai

dai ma cai win they sponsor more charity..

i'm so happy to see tis world so peace.

will i stand out and shine 一天？。。

我不怕。。

i grow along with my tears..

i grow along with my pain..
i'm grown now with a smile on my face and because i see what is life now..

i will find my way..

i must be brave..

i must learn b independant..

my ears filter Bu''Shiit, my eyes filter ugly faces, but my heart cant filter my pain
i feel so hard and suffer to live with a heart full of burden and unforgetable hatred.

i wan to put down the hate and worries,

let go the desire and egoness,

set free my mind to be care free like a child

she is a happy child..everytime i see her smile.. i feel so happy..

even a big girl nid to learn how to craft a simple smile on face.