The story of a crying clown

Her tears flow like stringless pearls.
Her face filled
with sadness.
Her eyes filled with grief.
She walked through the crowd,
dimming in the shadow of darkness.

She screamed.
No one heard
her.
No one see her.
She was alone.
Alone as she was.

Streaming down the street,
everyone sees her as a clown.
Yet,
she was a crying clown.
People see her as a laughter,
as she who can
bring laughter and joy to all.

But, no one notice the tears behind her
masked happy face.
All in the world, yet no one.

No one see her.
She remained silent.
Remain what she was supposed to do,
the task of
the crying clown.
She, who hide her feelings in a mask of happiness.
All
she wanted was to bring joy to people.

The story of a crying clown.
Remains as it was.
As sad as it can be, to joy to those around her.
With grief and sorrow,
she ended her life providing happiness to all.
Yet, truly,
she was the one who left the world without a glimpse of
happiness.

The story of a crying clown.
Remain as it was.
Deep
and slient within the hearts who see without their eyes.

we both have equal things to worry about

But why the shares always tend to be ignored..

if ther's time u nid to be alone..i may just disappear for awhile.

at Monday, August 18, 2008

Beautiful moments don't come easy for me.

still sickening...

I spend the whole day watching my dramas , done shopping online and I'm juz over spend by just few clicks.. demm.. last few nite was scary enuf when the seller comes up with the bidding thingy since there's this some rich girl that interested on the same corset top like i do. So we bid by emailing in between and the seller was the dealer..hrmm..quite exciting la.. the bidding price start from Rm59 onwards..And i'm the lucky no.1 who yell the 1st price.. i bring up to RM70 thoughting to deal it fast.. endless mails i received that nite.. and guess who wins the game? Definately me not.. i surrender earlier enuf..think twice think twice.. the price has gone far way expensive than it shud be.. thx to the nice dealer that has pull me out fr tis impulsive desire to win.. -.- nyway.. the corset top is sold @ RM200~ ...btw, there's one Guess corset top selling RM1xx onley..surf online, you might find one cheaper.. lolx.. claps claps claps... As a complimentary of the success by helping my nice dealer fren to b RICH as in relatively.. i get the offer RM5 on one of her dressie.. hrmm... still spending ey?

-.-

at Saturday, August 16, 2008

MC Day

Yay... i got my break pass for the whole day away from work finally.. woops.. shud i b happy or woot? i'm sick wieh.. ain't so proud nyway..my dry throat are now filled with disgust flame..the best lubricant for my dry throat lol.. i barely can differentiate flame and so called cendol liquid stuckin and out in my nose..vr disgust aite.. sry if i spoilt ur appetite teehee.. The worst part is flush in the medicine down through my soring throat..i wonder why they dun make a smaller pill instead of those monster size pill to swallow...

WARNING! The post below are meant for adults onley~

Yst is the feast day start for the wandering souls on street.. my family bought a lot food, praying papers and bla bla.. i dun even kno wat it call.. We all are banana with low low low knowledge on the chinese praying thingy.. we ask for the help from the shop that sells the prayer stuff and yeap he freak me out.. he described.. after pray..not forgetin to burn tis important papers at the last..these papers will send the wandering souls back to where they are and " you don't want them stay and wander infront your house right? " .. creepiest word of the day..definately will disturb me for the whole month.. not to forget..i did ask him how to pray my pet "snowie"..he told me the procedure is just the same.. they are juz like human.. stay for 29 days before they off to heaven.. so she'll be around me all the time.. and i can sense it.. yst i felt like i'm talking to the empty air on the street -.- ... sounds stupid.. but dun say u dun believe..

Last night was dem creepy..it looks like the storm is coming.. so we thought to pray late abit.. hours later, the rain hvn start.. so we faster pray.. it was sooooooo windy.. soo sooo windy that hardly can start a fire! the zippo was like blow off every time we light it.. den we arrange the pray papers.. the papers tend to fly away -.- ... My mum called me to ask for Snowie to come out at where she was burried to eat.. and so there was me squading infront her grave.. talking to myself.. Snowie be gud, come out and eat, bla bla.. at the end i wish her to be reborn and able to have a better and happy life and ofcoz.. i wish her u r so going to be a leng lui! teehee.. she 's really a leng lui i tell u.. big-eyed and fair! My family took my dog who killed her to ask for forgiveness.. and the dog look so scared and cowardly runs to the back of the house during we pray.. i guess she saw sumthing..

Okay..time to rest.. +.+

now i sounds like a grandmother with the flame on my throat.. sigh.. sore sore me..

at Friday, August 15, 2008

Happy Birthday JIANE!

There goes another month older for You & me..

For the VERY 1st time we din celeb our big day together this month..

You were rushing your assignments.. and i'm accompany by the virus in me..

the heat is rising +.+

If fate can grant me a chance, i will say three words to him

“我愛你。。”

If there must be a time limit, I wish...... 10,000 years。。

mwuaakss~

There's a song... my all time fav..

Emi Fujita - Wishes
I looked in the sky and there I saw a star shining so bright above
I closed my eyes and wished upon a star that I would find true love
Someone who needed me
Someone to share my life
For a love that would be true
I would wait for ever
So...no...matter how long it may be
I will be waiting
One star-brighter than the others
Two hearts-beating for each other
I believe wishes really come true


Love at first sight I knew it from the moment when you said hello
I hoped you felt it too, but we were both so shy-how was I to know
when you reached for my hand
I knew you were the one
We laughed and talked for hours like I'd known you forever
Like...a...dream or something from a book
True love has found me
One star-brighter than the others
Two hearts-beating for each other
Now I see wishes really come true


You just have to dream
Nothing's as bad as it seems
to be...believe me
Someone's waiting for you to try
There in the sky
One star-brighter than the others
Two hearts-beating for each other
You will see wishes really come true
You can't stop believing-wishes do come true
You gotta believe me wishes do come true

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Body shutting down

i think my body hates me.. -.-

i got these symptoms of dying ..

1. no appetite..

2. hot fever..

3. flu and cough

4. headache


5. dizziness

6. bubbly saliva.. probably kena poison..

7. sore throat

8. vomit feeling... caused by dry throat +.+

9. sleepy but not sleepy .. okay tis is contradicting each other.. only my body will understand y

-.-


okay i get it
-im fragile-

*cough cough*

*sneeze*

my body is shutting down so..body, go to bed now~

X.X

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at Wednesday, August 13, 2008

As wat i promised.. we proudly present you

LoveShotx

E-boutique

loveshotx.blogspot.com

clicky click on da link above

My e-boutique starting slow eiy?

How 'bout some sweet appetizer from Korea in advance?

teehee... will speed up my update sooner..

do visit k? and pls spread the news

xoxo

at Tuesday, August 12, 2008