A Goodbye forever, Rest In Peace.

Last monday, it's my 1st day of my intership. Everything went smoothly, although working on the 1st day in a fast pace environment was quite hard to adapt and get used to it. Now i realized that i've been holiday for too long..my brain is turning slow, my iq & eq is getting low, it ends up my mind which tend to blow out of the way。. perhaps.. let me just skip bout my intern story..

There is one thing that had make

my life gone worst,

shocked,

upset,

broke down,

which i won't forget on my 1st intern day

I had received a sms from my friend, which a msg forwarded fr a bro of my fren, Mui Leng telling that, “ my sis has passed away yst at 6pm, please for her last respect。。。” there's doubt at the begining i tot my fren was just joking around, but i dun think he will make a joke like this. i'm so shocked with it.. wt! i just met her sumtimes ago after we graduated, i met her at times square working in a cake shop. I was REGRET why don't i spend more time chatting and keep in touching with her before, why she left us so early in this age. Perhaps, u all must be wondering what cause her to leave so early.. well.. as i heard from my high sch bestie, szi hean and ML's bro. she felt pain sumwhere. she felt sumthing goes wrong on her health that she feel sick, and so she went to UKM for a body check up. Surprisingly and doubted why the results the doctor given was al goes nrmal on her health. till the doctor told her nothing to worry much and call her wait for 2 more weeks for further check ups. but then..god has no patient to take her back to the heaven. She watching TV in her house and serious coughed out vomiting bloods. She was sent to hospital but it's already too late. The post-modem hasn't out yet but they suspected lung bacteria that killed her.

I rushed to the cemetry near MAA kl to see her for the last time. I was so scared and afraid to see her.. i dun wan to regret for the second time for din see her for the last time, so i took a deep breath and made a step front to view her laying down in the coffin. I was soooooooooo shocked, it took me less than 1 second to take off my eyes from her face. I just saw half of her face, and i whiippped and cried....it was sad... my heart really ache.. i lost a fren forever..i will never find the same smell of her, same look like her, same voice like her everything she had is unique.

Treasure a true friend, Never give up a friend who worth for your tears, i had gave my tears to her, something never change is our friendship remains forever eventhough we already be far apart. I know she will blessed every each of us.. Mui Leng.. Rest in peace.

No i can't sleep...i'm suffering from insomnia i guess.. i'm fear of death.. im cowardly hide from the life game..i will live my every second to the fullest.. love every single people around me...appreciate all things you got now, tell everything you wanna say now, dun k even if is your ego makes you regret day after today.. i hope he is all the time with me keeping me secure in place..im really afraid every time i going sleep i cant close my eyes, afraid when will be my last to see the light again.. it's just too scary..i nid plenty of times to recover fr this.

My current motto：

“make your dream, work your dream, don't die your dream 。。”

Or else your dream will die together with you.. it's just consider suicide..don't ever give up dreams...

There's one video i wanna share to u all..

This short video omost got my tears shed again..

Free hugs campaign was going on around the globe from various of countries to tell a hug might seem ntg to u, but a hug can save a person from going suicide for those who are lonely and lack of love. However, this campaign which is sooooo meaningful was banned al over the countries now.

..even ppl see u like a fool, dun give up ur dream

“you may say i'm a dreamer, but i'm not the only one。。”

- Benny Yuen, 2007

at Wednesday, June 04, 2008