°º 。JåNe 제인 。°º 。Sweet Escape

2009-08-12T01:33:00.002+08:00

How to say i miss u?

how to tell i need u?

how to ask for you to be here for me?

how ~

i realized i spend less n lesser time together with u now.. :'(

2009-08-01T03:16:00.001+08:00

today i drunk drive. im upset u wasnt here for me but u were ther with frens. wat else im asking for ur help? im disgust with myself.. im nobody am i?

2009-07-24T04:15:00.000+08:00

Faith Hill - There You'll Be
When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I�ll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I�ll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I�ll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I�ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you�ll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I�ll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I�ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you�ll be

'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always

In my dreams
I�ll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I�ll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you�ll be

2009-07-24T03:18:00.002+08:00

It's vr late at nite now. and im still awake... at sudden i wanna give u a call immediately after i reach home. i cried tonite telling my old fren i miss u vr much for unknown reason. i wan to tell u how much i <3 u..i wan ur health bec to normal... sumtimes i feel useless and helpless take caring u over ur sickness.. i wana make u warm porridge, bring u bottle of warm honey lemon, bring u the world bitterest herb for u to drink, blanket u when u asleep , touchin ur forehead to kno u r fine, rubbing ur back when u cough, passing u tissue when u flu...everything i can do for u.. sumhow wat if u reject me? i wish u will be free from sickness one day, at least wont tis come often, cuz i worry for u vr much.

2009-07-23T14:56:00.001+08:00

i wanted u to know im upset..i wanted u to kno i nid ur hug n say it's alrite.

2009-07-13T15:59:00.004+08:00

my dear cute silly boi.. its our 1 year 3 months anniversary today! muaks... i luv u so much...

when can i redeem my honeymoon to genting leh??

hmm.. im waiting... i cant wait to hug u all nite long fall asleep in ur warmie arms by ur side :))

2009-07-03T00:42:00.005+08:00

dear diary,

im not happy recently.. im goin insane i felt so much stress. worse part is i cant express my feeling well.. i starting to be anti social, away from meeting frens. even ppl in house. morning to nite i lock in my room. repeating same thing again n again. nobody knows wat in my mind, nobody knows how i feel, wat i wan, cry or smile, even they know. juz useless.. useless.. ntg will change.. the vibe in house juz same. stress sad. i became vr defensive, overeact, i dun like to be the weak one, i hate to be weak one. i can keep my anger, my sad feelings , hold bec my tears like ntg happen. but the feelings s bad. i cant breath, my heartbeat stop till i almost choke out of air.

i feel really weak, hopeless, meaningless to live. for many times smtg challenge me to shut my life of tis world. sumtimes thinkin is hard. i cant even think now. wat is the prob with me? i keep on doubting my decision. i already cheated the trust i have on myself. i dun trust myself. i dun trust my thinking, i dun trust my decision. im already lost myself. im juz a body without soul.

i cried underneath my blanket, covered up my ears, ignoring the voices i owiz afraid, the voice tat owiz bring me down, the voice that owiz knock my blif , confidence.. im not a gud child i can b honest. but i also deny her as a gud parent. she is not supportive, she scold rude, she ego, she owiz wanted her way, she is owiz rite, she juz... i dunno... my bro will understand my feelings. he been thru my position. remembering during my bad childhood memories, i still rmb...i wan a mum who is gentle, supportive, care for family.. whenever it is. she will repeat how great she have done, how wise she think... i never like her thinking.. i miss my dad.. my dad owiz giv me warmth, love, respect, he is a gud listener n heal my crying soul. he can persuade wat mum cant, bcoz dad owiz sound so caring , love... n she sound vr demand...she is the law. u cant break the law else u be punish. i owiz afraid of her, im mentally disorder when she can b 2 face in time.

i cant keep put blame on others. im hiding to myself in my inner world. i cant communicate well anymore, i feeling swaying away to the ppl.. am i a bad communicator? i hate myself. i hate myself till i wan to hurt myself badly. god pls help me wat to do. wat i wan. how shud i live? i dunno i dunno i dunno.. i dun even kno wat im asking u to help.. my brain juz shutting me down to think...

i cant talk anymore...im already used to this silence room. facing walls.. listening the talking to myself. will i turn to be crazy? no i dun wan..

n no one can know my sadness. it is my weakness. my sadness is troublesome, sadness should not be spread, i only shares my happiness..my sadness will be dump right here.. it juz a temporary absence of happiness.. i will be better tmr. tmr n tmr.

love is owiz my priority the energy i searching to carry on my life, to give me hope for tmr, to plan up ahead n ahead rest of my days.

i miss love..

juz blame im lifeless n u r lively in life.

2009-06-29T11:39:00.001+08:00

surprise is coming...

2009-06-25T20:58:00.007+08:00

Dear... did i make u angry again? izit something i have said? yst i cry whole nite not knowing y the vibe turn cold again. i was very worry n hurt when u reply me cooly. thinking those bad memories like before v been through. i dun wan face bec the same thing. i feel so happy be with u after v well bec after a bad quarrel bcoz i learn to appreciate u more. i love u calling me my dear, i luv the way u holding my hand, i love the way u kissed my head, i luv the way u put ur gentle lips to mine, i luv the way u tell loud ur frens u love me, i luv the way u sound worry on phone waiting me home safely, i luv the way u ca®e for me when i was lost, everything u do i juz love u more n more...

i miss u .. i miss u.. muaks..

tmr will be watching transformer with u.. i cant wait.. tell me tmr v will have a happy nite k? i wanna hug u kiss u grab ur hand tight..

recently not quite happy dear..told u yst i feel like dyin .. i quarrel with mum, den rachel suddenly changed, i think she misunderstand me. den i dun wan u misunderstand me too..3 people in one nite can really make me feel miserable. my dad called me twice yst hearin me cryin he tot im sad cuz mum. bt all i was worrying is u. i care how u feel n look bout me. i sounded ye man to u when u was tellin me u goin genting izzit? im sry.. i juz wan sound like i care n jealous. i wont stop u in ur frens circle. i respect u have ur own frens. i dun wan to explain the fault i create.

u r important to me. u make my day u also can turn my day like hell to. tis is life rite. every couple sure will have happy n bad times. but i dun wan this matter spoilt our sweet times together.

Seriously i vr regret go out yst with rachel meet her in times square to company her buy ticket, den v walked around, den v head to dinner, the next guy table came to our table n gave her slimming package brouchure call her think bout it. she vr embarrass dy.. so we go bec. n i go find nix n take bec my money n chat. im tired n it getting late, so i decide stay longer, drink till i jing sun onli drive home. but mum dy angry. in one nite i made so many trouble. i decided not to drive out so late dy. i dun wan u all worry n i dun wan create trouble. i will stay at home b gud girl. but sumtimes in house really lonely and stress. i juz wan a fren to listen n company. my frens r all in pj. wat shud i do. but now i think shud cut off those late nite activity le. unless with only u. my mm n dad onli gimme go out with u cuz they say u send me home is safer. they r rite..

luv me like a baby, let me luv u like a king. im really scared tmr u will cool to me. i dunno wat to say when i feel u r angry at me. the situation turn vr weird sumtimes i really numb wat to say next.

i luv u dear..

sumting tat i din tell u directly afraid u feel its annoying to u.

i miss u.. c u tmr my romeo..

romeo take me to somewhere v can be alone.

2009-05-03T20:39:00.004+08:00

Everyone has their problems, every relationship has it’s pitfalls. But when two people love eachother, they’ll keep coming back to one another, for better or for worse. Sometimes, you love someone inexplicably, nonsensically, without knowing why or being able to help it. And it takes courage to get over past mishaps and try, try again. Here’s to hope, and here’s to love

and i luv you.

2009-04-14T01:35:00.003+08:00

happy anniversary my dear.. im sorry for misunderstand u. hope we can past through all difficult time.finally it's our 1 year anniversary :) i love u as owiz

2009-04-09T17:15:00.003+08:00

I dunno

i feel sien. i feel geng hot, i feel tired, i feel wan do alot thing but i cant move, i feel sumthing i dunno, my thought is playing game with me all the time. how to stop tis n rest peacefully?

i wanna puke with my life now. study home study home..bla..

2009-02-23T22:27:00.003+08:00

Been few days never heard from him... not sure where is my position now..never been on9 for few days...the moment i on9 i c whether he is on9. saw him put away, not long he turn offline. dun need to ignore me. im not a monster. im not so desperate. the action he made, hurts me. i wont find him. i dunno he will anot. i will just live my life alone now.. its unmeaningful to love someone who want hide from u. and its difficult & hurt.

Been doing alot things these days... not fully recover yet but still can get the sad feeling away for a moment.

Thurs- pasar malam at chow yang ss2 with simon, vivi, rach, alvin.. eat alot 66. next @ MOS.. party like no tmr... vr fun.. saw somebody i knew for long..approached by alot unknown ppl 1 by 1 endlessly when i was busy dancing.. weird and hate it..till my babes bcome jealous liao :( got into vip upstairs with taylor frens, and him mr edison chen alike. Jump to cb to meet Des. seat infront cb chit chat and ciao. off to yumcha session @ sri murni ss2. tired hell. Definate continue for next thurs.

Fri- Been invited to fashion show at Club9 heritage row and the production manager, Mr Zul who is running Diva production and the one who run the fashion show. he intended to sign me under him. i'm not interested at all, keep pushing him to ask my babes, but he insist want my contact and have me picture for future work. he asked me to be interview on tv but i refused him bout fashion and designer on that night cuz i dunno any bout it , im not the designer fan also. he invited me to the vip seat next to the runaway stage and i think i cought in cam during the runaway starts. the show will be preview @ the april time on tv2 soon. Thx babe for the long island tea..although wait u quite long..arg..hate u leavin me alone drinking there like loner :(( while so many gays aside... sienz..but i do still enjoy it. after tat v yumcha at mcd ss2.

Sat- Breakfast with bububutbut at foodstall 14. Back to Heritage row, tis time me and my bububutbut at loft upstairs with des and frens, got to know christine, ana, and so on i forgot the names.. they all r so cool.. although juz meet.. but v dance like nobody biznes. the place is not tat nice compare to mos but u all make the place happen. we girls even get on the side lil stage dance and the guys down stage. next they want go 2nd session..so hardcore..somehow.. i think they misunderstand something. til somepart i get lil sensitive bout.. someone know it.. i hope b understand.

Sun- breakfast with bububutbut at mcd even sick == bububutbut wan kill me :(( after tat fetch princess simon who lazy walk to sch :/ tsk.. 1st time attend sun class.. sch was close when v reach. all stand at the entrance and the handsome lawyer lecture drive in with his c class merz..so yeng look like obama..went to ss2 do facial. rach called me and said someone has pass something to me. after fin facial find rach and carol at mcd ss2, saw from far she carrying a big thing. and she said someone pass to me as present. i feel weird. and worried.. what is the motif or intention giving me tis surprise? i dun hope is tat thing. i offer the present to rach n carol, they dun wan accept it. next i have to carry tis thing to yoga class waiting u babes. wtfuck. i realize i'm in big trouble and make me fall sick..till now.

to someones that come in my life tis time. i dun think is gud time. my heart still have somebody tat i dun even kno is still belong to me. eventhough i'm aware tat the relation im having might not be exist anymore.

i hope u take back the thing u pass to rach to pass to me. i dun feel tis is gud present, cuz i feel its burden to me. it not make me happy. but i feel what u did is trying to connect u. i'm not happy receiving tat. i have enough responsibility now. u cant imagine the stress i have.. especially im sick now.. so if u read tis, take it bec.. i told u i only interested in girls only..and dun force me or else v r not fren nemore.

to someone..dun put effort on me. i nid time off to settle down my ownself 1st. i give myself a priority to live a good life that i worth. i'm happy i'm been appreciate and admire. somehow, things just cannot work, and was not mean to be like tis. i still luv him who i dunno wher he is now. where is my prince?

2009-02-18T22:24:00.005+08:00

stupiest things i have done.. most regret is i find smtg to complain bout..

my valentine is wonderful.. i love it.. i'm so happy n felt te happiness u give me.. but the next day i took it away :(( i make things worst.. im so stressful recently.. i cant control my emotion well. saying things tat din concern u. at beginning i tot i wanna fix our prob , i miss u tehh n sweet talks over me.. everytime i open ur blog i saw wat u wrote to me b4 is so sweet. miss tat.

now i realise wat i did now is wrong.. i know love dun stay the same all the time... love style will change and i cant demand so much... i learned tis now.. i realized alot... i shudnt complain.. shudnt order... shudnt force.... cuz at the end its no meaning..

i hope our relation will get better and not loving without souls. i asked u r u happy with me cuz i dun wan force u over smtg u not willing be with. no matter how much i love u. if ur heart gone.. i only love an empty soul. i wish u still have the love for me.. i dunno wat can i do n how far i can go without u... i feel myself today so fan jing... no dignity.. not gin chi as a girl..i took alot shameful 1st move over u.. hug u, kiss u, hold ur hand.. my heart sore when u wan to pull away.. but the time u hold my hand i kno i cant let go.. no matter wat i will fight for my love.

i know we shudnt meet often when ther's problem starting grow. u told me u nid few days of rest... r u really mean it? if its ur decision , maybe it's good for us to cool down n heat up the love again. i kno u tired loving me for me owiz emotionally explode.. i kno i wrong, i feel sry. can i repair tis? i wan to happy with u.. i wan u smile like talking with ur frens. i wan u feel breath easy, uncontroll. my fault.. i will control tis.. i wont demand u.. tis few days maybe i shudnt kacau u. give u rest. but doesnt mean i giv up. i hope u dun too.. when u feel the love n miss feeling to me is back,u can always find me..

i never stop love u..

hope v can get over tis challenge n move on be stronger relation.

all my life i will be with u forever.. i will owiz here support u even im not by ur side always. love link to us.. im attach to u.. wil only stop when u wanna cut tis string.

speech of luv

2009-02-10T01:06:00.011+08:00

I dunno y tis feeling is here.. i feel sad.. holding ur hand or huggin u de warm n feel really unexplainable when v together but when v not meeting i only can feel u through writing / calls. i dunno is my messy feeling or i juz overly sensitive take tis matter too serious.. dearly i wanna hear u said smtg u wont said to ur frens but me, u get lesser muaks over me, saying words tat seem so repeatin b4 i luv u, i miss u tat kind. but tis magical speech tat makes me happy starting get lesser. n i afraid it will gone soon. r u afraid tis word will bcome unmeaningful one day or u dy bored with tis speech.izit hard now n not bfore for u?how do u differentiate the way talkin to a lover & frens? y i feel myself drifting farer.. my heart really pain. tis feeling really suck. i cry for whole day wishing someone comfort me but end up mum yelling outside door over something small.. i feel so emo..every emotion has a reason. and my reason is. i juz hunger for ur speech of luv. a speech tat come within heart. if tis magical speech fail its power wining a smile, wat's the meaning for the effort? i hope my love on u has a return. is u luv me too.

sometimes i wonder wat u think over me? am i really weak in ur heart? i nid hug everytime cuz i enjoy huggin u. i can end tis stickiness over u if u dun like. if u feel uncomfortable.

jane jane. shud i tell my feeling out tat might be wrong to him or just keep silent cuz tis mayb i juz think much.. i hope i can pass all this thru with him.. end my feeling over ntg.

if dear did saw tis. pls dont mad over wat i said if i wrong. girl have stupid feeling most of time. i hope u understand n comfort me to gimme realise my position in ur heart. mayb not all the time have to say tis la say tat yuk ma de.. mayb v dy hav mature luv.. sien over tis kinda word. but for some special occasion, some day, some time, manja me once a while as bonus can ma? i really siew hei over small things. but i easy to please. lil things can make me so happy. cuz ur effort i can sense love. like u told me u queue for the bag u buy for me @ london in freezin cold time. i really fly high happy n touched! tat feeling is unexplainable. something feels like u wanna cry, u wanna hug him , feel bad over myself cudnt warm u up tat time.. it's a mixture of all feelings in together tat make tis feel so wonderful .. cuz its ur love to me. ^^ dear.. i'm not complaining or demanding, i juz wanna honest wat i feel.. i dun wan diam n keep the feeling of worriness..but at the mean time i oso feel scared.. i scared i tell u how i feel u will fed up treating me better like forever im not satisfy..i do satisfy my now.. the moment us together. i even wish time stop here.. i wish u feel the same.. i really wish how u feel for me as much i do feel for u.

dear .. i dun wan feel im a stranger for u.. cuz it really sad.. mayb shorten msg is gud for busy time..but leave some little time to me kay?

Met you by surprise, I didn't realize that my life would change forever.
Saw you standing there, I didn't know I cared. There was something special in the air.
Dreams are my reality. The only real kind of real fantasy.
Illusions are a common thing. I try to live in dreams. It seems as if it's meant to be.
Dreams are my reality, a different kind of reality.
I dream of loving in the night and loving seems alright although it's only fantasy.
If you do exist, honey don't resist. Show me a new way of loving.
Tell me that it's true, show me what to do I feel something special about you
Dreams are my reality. A wonderous world where I like to be.
Illusions are a common thing. I try to live in dreams although it's only fantasy.
Dreams are my reality. I like to dream of you close to me.
I dream of loving in the night and loving you seems right perhaps that's my reality

2009-01-02T23:22:00.006+08:00

Goodbye 2008 Welcome 2009!

A belated 2008 year review for me. 2008 was a sux year for me at the beginning. I got hurt, lonely with no love. till i met this nice guy. My life changed! i live my everyday with a smile and enjoy my life like no tmr. i'm consider lucky i found a gud man. the way we got to know each other was very funny and special, i call tis fate.

My resolution and wishes for my new year is certainly on my 1st priority is my boy is by my side always. with his love , care and support every problems seems like kichimiow for me dy. Now i know why love gives a person strength, it's the power of love!

its lucky and happy to know that i'm yours,i cherish all the moment we had.The sweet times,the hard times,the fights,always learning from each other and the forgiving. I love you

Secondly, a vr lame wish that everybody have, is health, in my context of health it's include fit fit body shape la.. lol.. i dun wan gain weight tis year, so dun gimme fat, gime ' fatt tatt' can lo.

thirdly, i wan be prettier la. heehe.. i wan have a killing figure and killing look lo, kill my bf kaw kaw. lol who dun wan tis leh? pray hard beauty enemy dun find me.

forth, i wanna be rich leh... in my rich context, i hope i have infinite cash, den i can shop till drop without looking price lo wahaha.

fifth, it's my final this year lo.. i wan to study less stress, exam smartly, pass with flying colours, and graduate with pride. study should be happy and enjoy without much stress de..study till giller is not worth lo.

sixth, Pamper time, after graduate i wish to travel and have fun enjoy my life before work life. if i can afford to play before work ;) bless me with good finance.

seventh, get a high pay job. working is a force of life for most. If i'm lucky enuf, i wish i work wat i love and enjoy every minute like a holiday mood. i still dunno what i wanna do yet. but advertising seem blur to me. graphic design i like but it's vr competitive outside. many ppl duin tis.

My dream, if only i can get my mum help me build a bridge in my career, i wan to be.... a boss myself lol. i wan to run own business. i like girl things. girl business is easy way to earn. maybe a lil lil white modern boutique. selling clothes n accesories, with a lil cafe at the side serving customer coffee and cakes (probably serve shopper's bf while waiting gf busy trying on clothes) hehe. at the cashier side i wan a computer electronic cash machine ( as i dun have math brain) and a Mac laptop on the side for me handling online business and do some design works.. This is what i call life. Doing what i love, earn money by giving ppl satisfaction in return. so meaningful.

eight, I must own a car tis year! it's my dream! i must i must! even i dunno drive in correct road, dunno park, i still wish i own a car! what car? i dun mind any car as long its not manual and not old car lo! small size car can be vr cute sumtimes ;)) i love mini cooper in Gem of life. so cute leh. i think it's easy to drive in kl. but if u call me buy tis car, so not worth it lo..

ninth, no wet eyes! i dun wan lose a single tears this year! it muz be a happy moment waiting infront fo me.

Lastly, i wish everybody got happiness!

2008-12-28T23:14:00.014+08:00

My dinner at Sakae Sushi-Sunway Piramid. Every restaurant on long queue. By rite plan to dinner at ShoGun eat Japanese buffet but need wait 13 more seats to go. Even Sakae sushi also nid wait 4 seats.

The food is nice! yummy. mayb i just like japanese food!

And like their system. Ordering using computer with pictures of what food you order. plus got free hot water refill on every table. The world dun need waitress anymore~ but the place is vr hot. not enuf air cond

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ReachN to RICH

A day @ KLCC.. I went in utmost all the luxury stores and dream to bring everything home with me. the most amazed me store is one of my fav store, CHANEL..

The price for the bags are super expensive! 9000k> some bags i spotted even 10k plus.. i think ppl who carry chanel bags are 90% replica. i saw alot replice chanel quilted bag selling out there. ==

A Xmas gift for myself..

Chanel illuminating powder + Chanel shiny lip gloss.

Simply my temptation for this time~

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Today i have cut my hair... dearie wonder how my hair look like? teehee... i thinking to color my hair.. so ugly got black hair growing back makes my head got 2 tone liao. wear cap later 'ppl' say me shuffle.. my huai tan lao gong said it de lo.

P/S: my bf is coming home real soon! i wanna huuuuuug him so much sobs..

2008-12-27T11:34:00.015+08:00

That's the end of the year long waited xmas.. it was sux tis year xmas. got to wait till the next xmas in 2009.. i wonder who and how i will celeb next year xmas.. hope it's a memorable one.

Arg i bought ntg yet for my cny clothing.. i just bought another more sandal. i bought alot of shoe. but i dun wear any. so waste of money. i feel my money going to flush out without turning bec. sien.. i wish i got a money printer. den i can buy gucci, chanel and prada. and favorite collection of chanel, anna sui and dior cosmetics. till the time i work, i'm going to bring all these brand home with me!

And now i wanna head to KLCC buy my long waited chanel powder YES!

2008-12-25T12:13:00.005+08:00

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i just testing wearing la.. im not going shuffle lo ~but i feel taller with cap wor.. hehe

Boring Christmas Eve...

I went to Times square Neway with my old friends and my bro. so damn f sien.

there's is no countdown for xmas on bintang street. the street only full with lala zai & mui dirtying the street, cars and innocent human being passes by. so pity lo them.

I bump with my piu ko on the street with his frens. and we chat for a while. they going to hartamas but my sien old frens wanna ciao.. my bro wanna go sunway early morning play water. arg.. so unfair.. everybody dy got they plan on xmas.. == i guess i spend on duin smtg better.. shopping for cny! definately will be crowded outside like no need money buy for clothes. sien... hate buy clothes with aunties pulling clothes... so dun shop last min o..

If i'm a kind of food. i know what i am..

I am a sticky rice..lol

cuz i miss the owner..my baby dear in london. sob..i wanna hug him so tight.

kiss him n leave lots of loves marks on keke...

so incomplete without my dear on xmas.

baby i waiting u home soon.. u will be home soon...

yies... jumping happily..lalalala~

merry xmas my boy! muaks! i love you so so much! din say often.. but u kno i do rite?

2008-12-19T21:09:00.006+08:00

Counting..

missing..

lovingly..

wishing..

you will be home soon..

aahhh... cant describe tis feeling...

Dear u make me taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat infinately missing u madly..

2008-12-18T18:30:00.010+08:00

So down since yst.. i felt bad luck. 1stly i got attack by stupid virus in my both side of saliva filters end up my neck n face swell. i dont like it.. i fell terribly pain. cant enuf chew food n smile.plus throat hurts. tats not it..

nvm..

when i was sitting n stand wanna walk, my left foot sudden soft like soft crab makes me hurt my leg muscle.i shout pain tat time. shit wat happen on me.. i felt my body system goin down after few days lack of sleep n drink. till today my neck under chin still got lil swell but much better tat yst. i so scared i never skip taking my medicine. and i question the medicine the dr gave me. 2 antibiotic, and fever pill? i tot more specific med he told me in dr room tat i dun even understand..but end up onli antibiotic. == i worry i got lump or serious disease :'( i rmb one of my secondary fren died because got lung infection.. juz 2 days she died suddenly. i felt so terrified cuz dr prescribe got virus infection. instead of hoping to be care.. they blame me not taking good care of myself..

nvm..

den the guy i sell him my compaq he msg me again he said my pc izzit got problem. wtf he said the ram memory wasnt showing the rite size. he upgrade it to 4gb i guess he said showing bigger space. how was that suppose be happen? i vr stupid on pc thing. when we deal he check he said he tot is 1gb . it shows 512mb onli. tat case i not sure cuz when i buy is printed on receipt upgraded. so worry he wan me giv him bec money cuz i giv him personal warranty 1 week but before i did told him better to check everthing on the spot till satisfy onli buy. plus i wont be selling it to him if tat time he wasnt rushing me when i sick i wanna rest at home. argggg...so mad. now he call me to ans him honestly my pc is faulty anot. and i clarified him is working gud. ( cant be a problem cuz tat pc juz got fixed!) .. sien

nvm..

i'm so loaded with unfinish business. will settle everything before new year come.

nvm..

i cant c him on9.. u busy / ignore me? sad..

christmas is coming. what i going to do?

sien

2008-12-13T00:30:00.021+08:00

I miss you my dear!

Happy 8TH months Anniversary Dear!

c.. I'm not forgetful as u think.. miss you so much tis month you & me cant celebrate together.. so.. incomplete...

Anyway still got alot of months v going to count.. ^^ hope fr far u can feel my love.. hope my love will give you warm in the winter ther.. i wish to be ther hug u and rub ur body to warm u. i cant afford fly ther for you therefor my baby do wrap urself tightly with thick clothes! dun u dare get sick! u hvn enjoy paris ^^ so cool u going to be ther..im oso excited for u le. tat place sounds so romantic but dunno real place izzit like what i see fr drama ne?

I love you dear.. will always do.. hope to see you soon!

muakss :*

2008-11-25T22:07:00.015+08:00

knowing 9 more days u will b leaving de feeling is vr upsetting.. for sure i will miss u and mm seh dak ur sudden disappearance.. we will b far apart tat period. i know it's just a while for u.. not for me ..i dunno how to use to it. will u miss me during this period? can u gime big hug with lots kisses b4 u leave? i really misses your love. i'm crying for your love. take good care when u r at new place. i cant b around u all the time but i wish my love will protect u fr harms, warm u up when its winter. can u take picture of snowflakes to me. i never see real snow before. u make my dream come true k? ntg i can ask more now. set when is ur last destination till den we will meet again.

shudnt be unhappy rite? ^^ silly me.. shud hold tis opportunity time left for me to sayang u more tis 9 days.. i love u baby dear..i owiz do..

2008-11-25T02:37:00.012+08:00

Today went out with dear whole day ^^ muaks... thanks dear buy me the mouse n protector i love it vr much.. u spent alot today ler.. save more money for petrol bring me go kai kai oo.. heehe...

love you

loving you more day by day .. words cant tell y.. but this feeling makes me dying to sayang u more ^^ hope u feel the same too..

exam coming nearer.. tmr i wanna skip class le.. but i will do my revision at home.. and dear wat u gonna do ? tell me tmr ya.. im sleepy le.. finally feel sleepy.. vr hard to sleep these days.. izzit u din gimme goodnite kiss ne? u better be.. luv ya.

2008-11-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

记忆会说话　思念在发芽　

ji yi hui shuo hua　si nian zai fa ya　

微风催促一地落叶　归去啊　

wei feng cui cu yi di luo xie　gui qu a　

贝壳恋着家　鱼儿游水啊　

bei ke lian zhao jia　yu er you shui a　

剩我这念旧的巨蟹踩着沙　

sheng wo zhe nian jiu de ju xie cai zhao sha　

熟悉的对白　我虽然说了出来　

shou xi de dui bai　wo sui ran shuo le chu lai　

感觉开始回来　开始又回来

gan jue kai shi hui lai　kai shi you hui lai

这些日子以来　偶尔会想起你的爱　

zhe xie ri zi yi lai　ou er hui xiang qi ni de ai　

面对这回忆依然还是温暖　

mian dui zhe hui yi yi ran huan shi wen nuan　

记得你爱把我的手　放进你的口袋　

ji de ni ai ba wo de shou　fang jin ni de kou dai　

将心里的温度还存在　在指间徘徊　

jiang xin li de wen du huan cun zai　zai zhi jian pai huai　

这些日子以来　偶尔会想起你的爱　

zhe xie ri zi yi lai　ou er hui xiang qi ni de ai　

面对这回忆依然还是温暖

mian dui zhe hui yi yi ran huan shi wen nuan

我会慢慢学着勇敢　慢慢学着取暖　

wo hui man man xue zhao yong gan　man man xue zhao qu nuan　

如果觉得冷　放自己口袋

ru guo jue de leng　fang zi ji kou dai

你的温暖　我会藏起来

ni de wen nuan　wo hui cang qi lai

2008-10-14T03:00:00.002+08:00

Dear Lao gong.. i know i'm not being a gud girl to you previously, but i will improve to be better care your feelings more and sayang you more de o.. 13th 了, it is our 6 months anniversary le..i'm so happy we pass all the gud and bad times together and i'm very thankful i got you as my better half in my life. i will hold your hand close and tight and

hope you will held my hand lead me my way oo.. i hope we can pass all the coming obstacles waiting infront us and my love to you will never fade.. muaks..

i promise i will change my bad temper and wont be tat ye man to you.. hope you can understand my wrong did.. ( mayb my second aunty arrive o keeke..)

what happen also.. i will put you at first.. you are very important in my life.. i will sek ju you heehe.. 老公我很愛你。。 mwuakkks...

my dream t do with you is to watch fireworks together with you..you must remember bring me see oo.. :))

2008-09-17T22:23:00.000+08:00

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.

There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.

There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown.

2008-09-05T01:59:00.004+08:00

Time to Forgive, Forget and go Forward..

Happy Fasting~

I'm just a girl tat nid lil bit of attentention..

2008-09-01T01:09:00.013+08:00

Happy Independence day

He got his one day of freedom..

---

nite

2008-08-25T21:51:00.008+08:00

I dun wan to live anymore..

God ..open your eyes..open your ears..

why u treat me unfairly

why me you choose to have a pair of watery eyes
why me you choose to take my everything
why me you choose to be bullied by bad demons on earth

why bad ppl owiz got blessed.

no matter how hard how much i do. i will never b the best..

why they who so dear to me cant hear my scream

why bloods that links cant feel my pain

why everybody are so cold

you took away my pet who have no choice to run fr listening me. instead you help it to loose its soul fr it trapped body

the more i live , the more scary i feel in tis world.

ppl killing their own ppl, just to get wat they wan, juz to protect themselve

no doubting tat they initially kill ppl who is innocent

i owiz believe everything comes fr my own hand.

i dun fight , i cant get it..

but wat if my story of life already written by you..

you have brought me tis fate..

you bring me no happiness since my childhood.

i hate you god.

i dun believe you..

everytime i scream for you..

you can't hear me.

wat i wan

wat i've dream

you broke them into pieces

you gimme dream

and you take away fr me everytime i wake up

i'm too naive.. too stupid...too simple minded..

just kill me fast

i wish you will write my next life story like every fairy tale you told the children

i wanna become a healthy baby

with a pair of lovely loving parents

with many close happy bro sis to play together

a happy family,

a family with no stress of finance,

parents who create no worries for their child,

parents who can sacrifice for their child

parents who will listen and solve their prob.

a responsible parents i wish i have

to have many many real-real friends,
friends who don't lie,
friend who win both way,
friend who true in heart,

i dun nid a fren to please me infront and stab me behind.

a friend tat can share i wish i have.

study with no fear of failing,

study tat can fly me to place i wan,

flying result to be recognise by ppl,

and ends with a smiling shot wearing the graduation suit surrounded by my loves.

work in a favor company,

secured by high income,

happy work time with no stress but fun,

colleauge who are friends not enemy fighting for a bread or bun,

LV, GUCCI, COACH are no longer a dream,

MYVI, BENSI , Porche are no longer my dream,

Ferarri , Lamboghini, Fairlady come for me in my dream..

How i wish i can have a car tat look so sporty,

fast speeder tat makes every car around me look so turtle,

An engine sound tat vroom vroom.. furiously,
A door close with a gentle chuuup.. sound..
a sunroof like everynight i can look up the sky for a shooting star,

full spec low skirt like i scared reveal my under.
tinted glass like i'm a superstar..
police happy see my car

because can give summons
i buy summons with a teh tarik price i can go buy toto and try my luck..
toto no win try dai ma cai

dai ma cai win they sponsor more charity..

i'm so happy to see tis world so peace.

will i stand out and shine 一天？。。

我不怕。。

i grow along with my tears..

i grow along with my pain..
i'm grown now with a smile on my face and because i see what is life now..

i will find my way..

i must be brave..

i must learn b independant..

my ears filter Bu''Shiit, my eyes filter ugly faces, but my heart cant filter my pain
i feel so hard and suffer to live with a heart full of burden and unforgetable hatred.

i wan to put down the hate and worries,

let go the desire and egoness,

set free my mind to be care free like a child

she is a happy child..everytime i see her smile.. i feel so happy..

even a big girl nid to learn how to craft a simple smile on face.

i was once a ballerina too.. when i was in my kindergarden...i'm a sad ballerina who often change kindergarden..

i got shifted alot and i lost my childhood friends along my way

my childhood wasn't tat complete after all..

All i wan is to be love again..

i wanna a guang guang lit lit de ngoi..

i wan huv a everlasting relationship

and the end would be a happy marriage to a caring ,protective, love me husband...

is tat so hard for you god?

i'm juz a tiny lil lil girl on earth..

dun blindfold and overlook tis girl here ;((

2008-08-19T21:16:00.005+08:00

An day filled with emuuxxions..woke up in a groggy mood, turn on my lappie..play the musics loud..get redi to work..endless cars jamming in the morning..and there was me late again utmost everyday~ Yet still hvn receive any complaint..and that was a relieve..tiff was out..and there goes me work like hell..facing these serious stressy faces.. -.- turns my nerves on everytime i c those face.. grrr... tat's fine...and there goes, the missy "beeeep" fed me up with lotsa dead cats...fu'k la... interns owiz get bullied sumtimes... and i kno i wasnt alone.. that's alrite.. end of the day more jobs login in.everybody were rushing.. tense.. and so fu'k up by missy "beeep"... grr...it gimme a great headache everytime i work.. i guess i have some tumors stuckin in my head now.. i feel so sick everytime i work -.- ...anyway..nitemare will end in no time.. i'm almost there..2 more weeks to go i shall win my freedom to have a real life.. working has no life..serious..how i wish i have unlimited cash to spend..unlimited time to waste...

Tmr shall be a exciting day cuz i'm off to Lim Kok Wing for a tvc shooting... definately from am to am... wuuuwuu... shall i cry or laugh now? I browse through the scripts, i saw the talents, and i'm not satisfy with it..cuz i spot no hemsem talents there, no boobies babe, teehee..nyway tmr i'm so gona bring a huge umbrella, plenty of sunblocks... and watersssssss....

i miss my ♥ ly darling soo much

my fuel is running out now..

i shall b gone to bed by now...

buby peops.

2008-08-19T01:33:00.012+08:00

It's been more than 10 days my baby left me.. i Miss her soo much... felt so alone now..

Ask me are you lonesome tonight?

Yes i am..

There's ntg i can do or help..i just hafta b patient waiting u here..

terribly missing u..

Buby..

2008-08-18T00:33:00.017+08:00

The story of a crying clown

Her tears flow like stringless pearls.
Her face filled
with sadness.
Her eyes filled with grief.
She walked through the crowd,
dimming in the shadow of darkness.

She screamed.
No one heard
her.
No one see her.
She was alone.
Alone as she was.

Streaming down the street,
everyone sees her as a clown.
Yet,
she was a crying clown.
People see her as a laughter,
as she who can
bring laughter and joy to all.

But, no one notice the tears behind her
masked happy face.
All in the world, yet no one.

No one see her.
She remained silent.
Remain what she was supposed to do,
the task of
the crying clown.
She, who hide her feelings in a mask of happiness.
All
she wanted was to bring joy to people.

The story of a crying clown.
Remains as it was.
As sad as it can be, to joy to those around her.
With grief and sorrow,
she ended her life providing happiness to all.
Yet, truly,
she was the one who left the world without a glimpse of
happiness.

The story of a crying clown.
Remain as it was.
Deep
and slient within the hearts who see without their eyes.

we both have equal things to worry about

But why the shares always tend to be ignored..

if ther's time u nid to be alone..i may just disappear for awhile.

2008-08-17T12:55:00.003+08:00

I woke up early morning by this painful sumwhere around my "body"... it's been dayssss..i'm in pain stucking inside my room for the entire day..sigh.. nyway.. won't be long.. cuz i'm going out~ teehee.. Going to cook some eggs in the hot spring water lolx..i'm serious.. den shud be at the curve drink with my frens. ;)) i finally touch my bamboo wacom! no more virginity seal for it.. cant be sell @ higher price dy sobs.. so i decided to play with it for the rest of my "life"..if i have a life.. i'm not good with it.. it's my 1st sketchie here..lol..juz took awhile to cmplete it..sumhow..it looks weird..i'm going explore again n again with tis wacom of mine.. it's getting fun here..and i got no time to play with it..

When it comes to design.. no doubt this guy called kevin muji the one who pop up from my mind.. Very talented playing with his art.. and he is crazy with paints.. ask him how much he spent on those spray... peep his bloggie link here...

www.kevinmuji.blogspot.com

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2008-08-16T14:08:00.002+08:00

Beautiful moments don't come easy for me.

still sickening...

I spend the whole day watching my dramas , done shopping online and I'm juz over spend by just few clicks.. demm.. last few nite was scary enuf when the seller comes up with the bidding thingy since there's this some rich girl that interested on the same corset top like i do. So we bid by emailing in between and the seller was the dealer..hrmm..quite exciting la.. the bidding price start from Rm59 onwards..And i'm the lucky no.1 who yell the 1st price.. i bring up to RM70 thoughting to deal it fast.. endless mails i received that nite.. and guess who wins the game? Definately me not.. i surrender earlier enuf..think twice think twice.. the price has gone far way expensive than it shud be.. thx to the nice dealer that has pull me out fr tis impulsive desire to win.. -.- nyway.. the corset top is sold @ RM200~ ...btw, there's one Guess corset top selling RM1xx onley..surf online, you might find one cheaper.. lolx.. claps claps claps... As a complimentary of the success by helping my nice dealer fren to b RICH as in relatively.. i get the offer RM5 on one of her dressie.. hrmm... still spending ey?

-.-

2008-08-15T11:45:00.003+08:00

MC Day

Yay... i got my break pass for the whole day away from work finally.. woops.. shud i b happy or woot? i'm sick wieh.. ain't so proud nyway..my dry throat are now filled with disgust flame..the best lubricant for my dry throat lol.. i barely can differentiate flame and so called cendol liquid stuckin and out in my nose..vr disgust aite.. sry if i spoilt ur appetite teehee.. The worst part is flush in the medicine down through my soring throat..i wonder why they dun make a smaller pill instead of those monster size pill to swallow...

WARNING! The post below are meant for adults onley~

Yst is the feast day start for the wandering souls on street.. my family bought a lot food, praying papers and bla bla.. i dun even kno wat it call.. We all are banana with low low low knowledge on the chinese praying thingy.. we ask for the help from the shop that sells the prayer stuff and yeap he freak me out.. he described.. after pray..not forgetin to burn tis important papers at the last..these papers will send the wandering souls back to where they are and " you don't want them stay and wander infront your house right? " .. creepiest word of the day..definately will disturb me for the whole month.. not to forget..i did ask him how to pray my pet "snowie"..he told me the procedure is just the same.. they are juz like human.. stay for 29 days before they off to heaven.. so she'll be around me all the time.. and i can sense it.. yst i felt like i'm talking to the empty air on the street -.- ... sounds stupid.. but dun say u dun believe..

Last night was dem creepy..it looks like the storm is coming.. so we thought to pray late abit.. hours later, the rain hvn start.. so we faster pray.. it was sooooooo windy.. soo sooo windy that hardly can start a fire! the zippo was like blow off every time we light it.. den we arrange the pray papers.. the papers tend to fly away -.- ... My mum called me to ask for Snowie to come out at where she was burried to eat.. and so there was me squading infront her grave.. talking to myself.. Snowie be gud, come out and eat, bla bla.. at the end i wish her to be reborn and able to have a better and happy life and ofcoz.. i wish her u r so going to be a leng lui! teehee.. she 's really a leng lui i tell u.. big-eyed and fair! My family took my dog who killed her to ask for forgiveness.. and the dog look so scared and cowardly runs to the back of the house during we pray.. i guess she saw sumthing..

Okay..time to rest.. +.+

now i sounds like a grandmother with the flame on my throat.. sigh.. sore sore me..

2008-08-13T21:39:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday JIANE!

There goes another month older for You & me..

For the VERY 1st time we din celeb our big day together this month..

You were rushing your assignments.. and i'm accompany by the virus in me..

the heat is rising +.+

If fate can grant me a chance, i will say three words to him

“我愛你。。”

If there must be a time limit, I wish...... 10,000 years。。

mwuaakss~

There's a song... my all time fav..

Emi Fujita - Wishes
I looked in the sky and there I saw a star shining so bright above
I closed my eyes and wished upon a star that I would find true love
Someone who needed me
Someone to share my life
For a love that would be true
I would wait for ever
So...no...matter how long it may be
I will be waiting
One star-brighter than the others
Two hearts-beating for each other
I believe wishes really come true

Love at first sight I knew it from the moment when you said hello
I hoped you felt it too, but we were both so shy-how was I to know
when you reached for my hand
I knew you were the one
We laughed and talked for hours like I'd known you forever
Like...a...dream or something from a book
True love has found me
One star-brighter than the others
Two hearts-beating for each other
Now I see wishes really come true

You just have to dream
Nothing's as bad as it seems
to be...believe me
Someone's waiting for you to try
There in the sky
One star-brighter than the others
Two hearts-beating for each other
You will see wishes really come true
You can't stop believing-wishes do come true
You gotta believe me wishes do come true

------

Body shutting down

i think my body hates me.. -.-

i got these symptoms of dying ..

1. no appetite..

2. hot fever..

3. flu and cough

4. headache

5. dizziness

6. bubbly saliva.. probably kena poison..

7. sore throat

8. vomit feeling... caused by dry throat +.+

9. sleepy but not sleepy .. okay tis is contradicting each other.. only my body will understand y

-.-

okay i get it
-im fragile-

*cough cough*

*sneeze*

my body is shutting down so..body, go to bed now~

X.X

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2008-08-12T03:32:00.001+08:00

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2008-08-11T22:18:00.003+08:00

No More Tears To Cry

nearly seven months
since that rainy day in January
yet I still remember it like it was yesterday
(I guess to me it always will be )

rain poured down as if it desperately needed to rid itself of all moisture
as if the clouds felt that they had to ring out all the water that night
that very night
or else the world would come to a drastic end

to me that "end" seemed to come anyway

she never had a chance to grow up

baby still
she was merely turning be a cheerful adult
her hairs grew so fluffy and white
her eyes were just like the eyes i saw for the 1st time..glimmering shine big and round

too young to experience life on her own
yet too old to have it spoon-fed to her

she wanted to be independent
a rebel
she wanted to say that she had done it without her mummy ever worrying
but she found out

it' time to free this baby of mine to own her freedom for eternal.
It's time to go
It's time to hop
Hop for your happy life to a place far on top
It will never be the same summer again
Snowball has melt
Snowie have gone for forever.

In memory of Snowie my baby 080808..
May my love keep you warm,
may the every best thing come to you,
if there's a chance for you to arise,
do appear in my life again,
it's to late to regret but it's never be too late to love you always in my heart..

I had an awful hard, depress, shocking, sad for the past weekend.

Yea, I think you guys might guess it rite by now..

My dearest pet rabbit has just passed away last 080808 which a quite memorable nite for everyone..

She died in fear and alone there she was with a heartless, stupidity prey in my house.

There's no chance i could ever forgive tis "thing"..ever i swear..

i felt awfully wrong cuz i'm not around when she need me most and in pain and fear.

This feeling i will carry the rest of my life because i didn't protect her well.

I'm lucky enough there's him..my guy who is there when i fall...i will never forget the warm shoulder he has offered me to cry on.. the hands he hold me up again..he has teach me to accept.. to be brave face the truth and there's always sumbody that always beside me..

I appreciate my guy vr much..

specially he hold up the courage dealing with my baby's body..even i cudn't do that..

There's always something special in him which makes him mean so much to me..

it's vr "old-fashioned" to repeat this.. but i must say that..i love you.. without you, i would b zero, but when i'm with u i have the infinite love and happiness.

our memory

Alvin, my fren teaching me to tame her..

to my friends who concern bout Snowie's incident..

Thx guys giving me support..

and lotsa love for my guy here!

2008-08-07T01:35:00.001+08:00

i'm super tired of everyday work.. and i insist wanna have my day off on Fri.. hoping i cud get the permission.. cross fingers... pls pls pls...

next week onwards.. i think i cud be slightly free at work dy lol... tiff tiff knows it alrite..aaaaaa...a despo despo home sick daughther at work...

i have a very busy boyfriend... =.=

2008-08-05T00:16:00.000+08:00

Tired day... i'm very very vr tired.........

work is getting boring..

soooooooooo tired... going sleep now!

nite everybody!!

2008-08-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

Take note for these signs.

it's

Another week has gone... 5 more weeks to go to reach my freedom... yesssssssssssssss......

in the meanwhile... i'm scaring my bf exams is near... lol...have to start revision dy leh...

Yst i went to Bangsar and did some shopping ther.... dem hot i tell u...and dem tired i must say..i cudnt even count how many stairs i've climb tat day... felt like juz fin my gym session.. i guess shopping can be a great exercising too.... hmm cudnt find any special things thers.. juz had an super impulsive purchase on the 2 dress ..i oso did some shopping for him..and so lucky tat he love it and suit his size.. funney funney sales"men" i met in this shop "P"... soooo gayish...beh tahan.. but he help me alot in choosing his shirt... and they answer me alot my silly questions..

After tat i had a great movie with him at the Gardens...we watched "The Mummy"..no time to sypnosis it... just a quick word to decribe it... scary lo...very bloody scary lo.... dunno how many scenes have scares me off my seat and squeeze his hand lo..

luv

Beautiful Sunday woke up by him and v went to Pc fair..

chICHAKK..my sweet corns on a beautiful day..

Pc fair is owiz full of ppl.....big crowd, stuffy hot, plenty of brochures, prices slash as like real cheap * tho is not sooo cheap..like as everything is free =.= ....however someones pocket spilling out bloods by now.. hehee.. lol.. saw a quite nice laptop Toshiba dynabook AX in pink..else than sony viao, and dell.. din't know that Toshiba got one in pink too...hmm nice design..but still i'm way too loyal to my dream laptop sony viao..tis laptop has a special meaning to me..vr much special...lol..apple wud b listed second after if work as a designer.

btw...i nid to control my stupid addiction towards pink! so serious that i'm aging with a colour tat way too... childish?

my working spot...and it's pink.. i'm glad my bf stop me fr buying the pink chair..

dang.. grow up grow up...

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it's new... it's sealed..

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asap b4 he cant stop himself tearing off the seal..

......

my hp batt running low..

so am i...

crashing now...

x.x

2008-08-02T02:30:00.000+08:00

it's like 2:30 am now in the morning before dawn..i'm just bec fr yum cha session with Jian at our old place "blow blow water" @ ss2.. we played cards and i have to admit tat my lucky has'nt arrive yet... lose kaw kaw on his hand... he is a lucky gambler! As i'm the lucky star shining around him lol...

Haf real nice nite with him..dug out sum of ur lil 小"secrets".. Seriously..dun like to hear bout ur past luv story la.. but because i hv tis lil tiny curiousity and lil bit of 8..but utmost all i gotta learn fr ur past tense x...i will absorb ur sadness, digest ur hatred, and feed u loves..

Hmm... my mini brain sudden make an big thought on furthering my studies in UK after graduate from my current Uni here in UTAR. I'm taking Advertising in now so-called Creative Industry faculty. I'm kinda regret on futhering my studies in UTAR..but it's kinda waaaay too late to pull out now.. I'm dy in my final year 3 and soon be graduating cuming May next year..

I doesn't mean to offence or make such complaint on the Uni i got in.. mayb is not the kind of environment and most importantly..I took the wrong course which most chinese literate /bring up will tot tat advertising includes designs..what i mean here is the in-depth designing skills slybus which Graphic design course that offers. Basicly I did consult UTAR on advertising course..but mayb kinda mislead by sum of the info given..Partially, they do teach rough "basic" skills on designing, but cover most on theory parts. swear it's not enuf if u depend on the slybus provided. For most of us in AV course, I believed tat we explores most by ourself and self-trained by force to complete the CRAZY loaded assignments given.

I started begin my intern in PnR Ad Agency and had a great chance to be site in studio, to be a tiny lil intern designer joining the big great groupie of outstand designers which came from Graphic designer background. I found myself soooooooooooo far away steps to be a designer which they haf the creatively crafted brain, magnetic snapping aligned eyes, turborize fingers, and 7/11 alert mind set , big sharp iris.. lol...wat a metaphor.. learning from them is like my daily dose of VitalMins now. My mini brain is now if never been so juicy than before compare to life in Uni..imma despo learner who omost got killed by every assignments. Sumhow being a designer haf to bare being procrastinating due to heavy workload at work plus extra sleepless nite. Cruel but satisfaction gained worth the sweats.

Btw.. my point here is... i ain't satisfied with the level i huv now.. my future seriously look kinda misty to me.. yet I huv an uncertain path with huge interests..i wanna stuck everything in my tiny miny brain.. lol... if i huv a chance to futhur my studies in Uk, I will definately take graphic design or broadcasting. Ask me why I choose Uk? why not support local? hehe.. the ans is for sum personal reasons..

To wat i most concern now is..the Pound$ matter...tat cost a bomb..my age are no longer eligible to burden my family more.. let's draw a line and release them from tis stressfull money matters just to accomplish my dream. probably get sum part time jobs there. The minimum wage in UK 1 hr is 5.5. As for holidays, work full day laa.. so if u work 20hrs a week, it's definitely enuff for lodging + food...teehee..sounds peanut..finding job oso a hard matter..unless i dye my hair b blond'e chic.

Ahh... jusssst being so exciting dreaming my way to UK...

my soul has flown high up...

clouds to clouds...

oceans to oceans...

i know.. im retarding myself.. and the pictures are not helping oso.. i look like some retard -___-

here Are some links on studying in UK... anyone joining in? lol

http://www.thes.co.uk

http://www.educationuk.org

http://education.guardian.co.uk

http://www.studylondon.ac.uk

www.ucas.ac.uk

.

glacias...

Happy Saturday!

2008-07-31T23:58:00.000+08:00

everyday works like a robot...i've been sitting infront computer for more than lyk 16 hours everyday.. tired shite... my pair of eyes so hard to open wide now..i wish i cud bring my sunglass to work and everywhere i go now... lights hurts..

i juz dun understand y ppl at work still can enjoy shopping, facial spa...since their time dy mostly occuppied at the work..sigh.. thoughting to pamper myself every saturday for a relaxing facial but.everytime i call they juz said fully booked! i'm vr pissed of with that kind of service and definately won't continue my facial there anymore after i complete the sum i huv paid which ain't worth for the bloody sweats i've earned now.

Today i got my 2nd month of salary in PnR..dem happy.. shopping time~

okay.. so pointless..i felt super boring...

crashing late 2nite..

again

x.x

2008-07-29T22:27:00.000+08:00

what goes wrong?

I dun like guessing..

I wanna avoid misunderstands..

I dun wanna leave any scar..

I just wan you b honest on what u thinking..

Everytimes ther seems "ntg", but what's the actual meaning behind tis word afterall?

i'd think about it over and over..

wat's the things u keeping to urself?

if u think i shudn't kno..

and u muzn't tell..

den let it so..

mayb i shudnt..

but i guess we can try to sort things out and make a happier tmr for both of us..

no matter wat happened.. i do love u..

2008-07-28T22:45:00.000+08:00

A lil surprise for the early Lucky Tuesday..

I dug out some of our old pics together and made him tis....

teeheeeeee...

mwaaaaaakkss....i love him soo much... :*

You know I can't smile without you dear
I can't smile without you dear
I can't laugh, and I can't sleep
I don't even talk to people I meet
And I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
And you must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without Jian wei.. :))))

You came along just like a song
You brightened my day
Who'd believe you were part of a dream
That only seemed light years away

And you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
And you must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

Some people say the happiness wave
Is somethin' that's hard to find
Into the new leavin' the old behind me
And I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
And you must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

Into the new, leaving the old behind me
And I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
And you must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

You must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

2008-07-26T02:40:00.000+08:00

Yes yes yes... it's Fri.. finally can see him le...

mood : HAPPYYYYYYY

a Song that sings my hearts for him.

Muaksssssssss!

2008-07-24T21:31:00.000+08:00

updated*" no matter wat happen dear, i will owiz by urside!" always! i love u sooo much..

-----------------------

Call me anti social for tis weak week..

fragile heart tonight

non a happy day..

okay.. morning.. woke up early and i had a hard time pulling myself out from my bed as i slept late yst altho i crawl to bed at10 sumthing.... after those moaning and groaning.. at last...i woke up... (is not tat easy kay)

=.=

nvm

i reach studio...accepting new jobs illust and indesigning..

Lunch hour we had a farewell lunch to the funny crappy eddy from production at Bangsar..

We have it at Nirvana an Indian shop which looks kinda famous with its hot spicy cuisine on banana leaves.

few spoons dy spoiled my sweaty and bloody diet...

NVM

Bec to the studio..got brief by eve to take over Boony job, which like 3pm which means i only huv few hours to complete the whole thing..wt..

my mind was juz not paying much attention..cudnt even think of any impressive ideas..

so in the end.. i went back ignoring my task.. =.=
ok tis is my fault...

nvm

bec home.. felt kinda dizzy..

nvm

tot can manja with baby..but..call me rest..

=.=

nvm

mood just aint so rite tonite..

nvm

let's just nite nite..

.. (mayb abit of self discipline) again

any mood stabilizer pills?

.....why so serious?

HA HA HA....

-__-

miss him

2008-07-23T20:39:00.000+08:00

After a full day of busy work, it was the most happiest moment i huv been waitinG all day..when it comes to 6, but..when i got home hoping that cud .. deep breath...*haihz...
For now i just wanna switch off the lights for another day to come

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

What's wrong with me?
Why do I feel like this?
I'm going crazy now

No more gas in the rig
Can't even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said
Can't even speak about it
All my life on my head
Don't want to think about it
Feels like I'm going insane
Yeah

It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
It's too close for comfort

Throw on your break lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

Faded pictures on the wall
It's like they talkin' to me
Disconnectin' your call
Your phone don't even ring
I gotta get out
Or figure this shit out
It's too close for comfort

It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
I feel like a monster

Throw on your break lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum Disturbia

Release me from this curse
I've been trying to maintain
But I'm struggling
You can't go, go, go
I think I'm going to oh, oh, oh

Throw on your break lights
We're in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice
Watch out, you might just go under
Better think twice
Your train of thought will be altered
So if you must faulter be wise
Your mind is in disturbia
It's like the darkness is the light
Disturbia
Am I scaring you tonight
Your mind is in disturbia
Ain't used to what you like
Disturbia
Disturbia

Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum
Bum bum be-dum bum bum be-dum bum

nite

2008-07-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

ahhhh... What a fruitful weekend.. i did shopping.. i did club, i watched the Batman, and utmost of all i get to spent my time with him..

snap in club

rewinding time..

bec to the oldtown kopitiam session again at tmn midah...

and silly us v huv good sense of art i tell u...

sweeeet cupa coffeee..

sweet kinda guy

i'm dem proud i did tis.. hahaaaaaa

wonder wat the waiter who collect the plate think of us..

my fav place for night view.. close to the bright shinny corns..

our sweet time

just the two of us
v r tied to b together
wear my sunny... ;P so cool

so many pics din upload.... :(

oh ya.. did i mention tat my company was break in last week? lol.. work still goes on..and i'm getting busier and busier... fuuuuussy fuuuussy clients.. forkiu is the simplest word to destress..

the more busier i cought in.. the more i miss him..

sleep time... nite....

2008-07-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

sien.....

work, sleep, eat , work , sleep, eat...

fri tmr again....

haih...

2008-07-14T00:33:00.000+08:00

Jiane are 3 mths old older now... and yet to be felt i'm still ain't perfect gf of his..i'm working on it to b a better girl to him..

night b4 it wasn't our happy nite.. i was wrong..i muz dealt with my emo.. my did and act for being irresponsible gf and ..i was wrong.. i know i shud b by his side always.. and i wasnt ther when he needed me so.. i regret, i feel bad.... i aint gonna repeat it again.. cuz my did got him hurt ... and so it hurt us both...

so here's wat i shud do in order to improve..every of our anniversary i will mark down my resolution to achive and till the next anniversary here i will check my list c how much i improve, did i got myself improve?, did i change my bad, .. and wat so ever .. let u guys b my witness.. Jian Wei...u heard tis?! yea i kno i'm not perfect.. i will work on it .. i luv u so much and i wont ever do tat to hurt u again..

lets scroll down to c my "a better gf mission 2b" to save tis love from harm..

number 1: I will be honest to you

2: I will be by your side always whenever i'm with you

3: I will tell you wateva i feel unhappy with

4: I will not remain silence to you when i'm ko

5: I will control my temper and emotional feelings

6: I will avoid strangers in clubs

7: I will make you happy , smile and laugh

8: I will b yourr spongy drank up all ur sadness & tense

9: I will appreciate and hold the precious time of our moment together

10: To be more sensitive over your feelings, knowing wat u dislike i won't do it

11: Care and love you always like everyday is the end of the world

12: I will treat you good , all the BEST tat i can give

13: I will be more tolerate

There's 13 resolutions i had made here. and it will be always 13. cuz 13 is when our Love begins and brought us here..

Till the next coming August 13.. u guys b my witness.. i am bout to change on every one month time.. tis is my mission.. i do take tis seriously..i aint joking...

JW..i LOVE YOU... i owiz do... luv wont fade till tis heart stop 2 beat.. i never lied my feeling towards you..so pls dun doubt tis feeling of mine..

hope u cud forgive my selfishnes b4.. wrongs i have done, problems i huv created, tears that shed..

it's all worth to let myelf c my weaknesses.. it's all worth for me to do something to b better...

it's all worth for TIS LOVE BELONG TO U & ME.

it's all worth to protect our home

tis luv sparks always do exist

HAPPY LOVING YOU xoxo

2008-07-13T02:33:00.000+08:00

happy 3mths

2008-07-09T20:19:00.000+08:00

enjoy! ^^

2008-07-09T01:16:00.001+08:00

Last Fri about 11pm-PnR's kaki clubbers were found in Bamboo9..i was there together with my bf's gang and Pnr gang and.. we party hard..

with art director, William
With account servicing, BJ
With one of the Ambient media group fella
With my Ex Uni senior, account servicing dep, Ming
With the most helpful senior director, CarmenLuv her cuz she help me out & teach me aaaalot!

shuffler Boon aka dunno shuffle "'
Walkin teaser guy..copywriter

and a lil bit of camwhoring of myself

and with him

juz to make my panda eyes avlil bit more dramatic

SAT nite, i went to Poppy and club with his gang...as usual..

den been to Aloha juz a lil while...

Recently.. I'm realy getting exhausted.. real weak... My throat sore.. my eyes red.. my head seems heavy... my mind seems blank..and my mood is flat low low low~

sigh i dunno... i muz confess... my hectic job is one factor , and ther's another factor tat is him.. time v spend isnt much.. a lil bit felt of loneliness days without him..

call, sms, msning are the onli way to ease my aching heart and weaken soul.

i had been silent these days..

sry dear for u to take tis communincation hardly..

wish cud b the gud girl to yours everyday..

u said : "i dunno wat i'll do in future"

and so i whispered : but i hope i can do it with u together...

- adapted fr our previous communication...

it's oki

tat's ok.

2008-07-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

yay... finally fri cums! i luv fri! finally can rest kaw kaw .. play shuang shuang... i'm bec to the studio! i was brief on a branded stuff.. some cool stuff.. teeheee.... duin some ad and advertorials for some beeeeep# brand tat will b feature in wanita & harmoni mags..

it's challenging my skills wiehh... stress giller...

my salary was out .. and i'm pretty happy with it teehee... dun ask me how much la.. its going to be zero afterall when i out fr d mall..

actually my workplace isn't tat stress la..mayb my previous post i huv tok bout my emo feelings..sum has asked me wat happen..was it my job or my love life.. basicaly is...there's ntg to do with both la.. juz tat im tired.. so lack of mood la.. den work time includes jam hours dy occupy my whole day.. i din even spend much time for him.. even he dun huv time for me when i huv time for him... hensem lou..u nid fin off ur stuff b4 do ppl stuff la.. i'm exhausted waking up early..i din huv much sleep eversince i started my intern.. tis lack of rest kinda stressin me up playin with my emo la..my workplace is vr free ... and fun la.. but when it comes to ntg to do.. then it's diff story la.. imagine i'm dy sleepy..ntg to do makes me even worst...

even he oso complain to b tired all the time =.=

izzit really tired or our brain told us to b so?

mentally self- abuse or phsyically challenge?

i'm reli gaining sum fats on shite shite shit... i'm tryin to avoid fatty foods.. yet my colleuge owiz trying to seduce me.. v huv a kinda lil "pantry" corner which serve free foods whenever sumbody brought bec sumthing.. "yuk gon" la, fresh siew bao la, apple DONUTS! how can they seduce me with these tempting rings leh.. thats my weak point.. i addict to sweet stuff lerr....

talking bout food... on top by my desk full of the expired drinks..from sum brand and the competitors.. the project is done yet it's still abondoned there for long dy .. last week one of em has explode... it actually spills like volcano i guess.. luckily tat was my day off..it's unavoidable when sweet stuff cought sum instincts attention... antsss..... fuck la... they march to my table today like hundreds of them... ever watch the movie indiana jones ar? lidat la they march.. they hvn c my weaPON yet..one smack they 'll gone forever..dare they cum again i'll show sum colours ..humppfff

2008-07-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

i feel so tired... not my body...juz my mind...

i'm moodless again...

wanna off leave tis place for sum air..

no air no air..

i miss the beach

ARGGGGGG.. i huv no idea wat i wan now.. my brain is stuck ..life sx la .. haih....

2008-07-02T00:08:00.000+08:00

pls excuse me i nid to

screammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

juz borrowing sum space to digest my stress....................................................

i super dem hate wakening up in the morning.. i hate i hate.. i loove my bed

i wish i cud sleep all day long...

i misssssssssssssssssss my guy..

i miss my shopping time..

i miss my workout session..

i miss my pampering time...

i miss movie time...

i miss boiling drama..

i miss everything...

how much longer.. juz how much longer i can help tis worst feeling.............

moodless...

toodles...

3 more days counting to weekends !!!!!!!!

2008-07-01T00:58:00.000+08:00

blue tues.. im blogging in d middle of the nite cuz i cudnt get myself to sleep..

the annoyin emo feeling is bec.. im feelin down now tat even myself cudnt describe it.. i'm real sux in telling wat myself wan.. cuz even myself dun huv the ans... sumhow i dun live in a contented life.. i felt ther's sumthing missing..

wat is it?

i dunno.. i'm gonnna find it out..

i hope tis goin b a perfect happy week for me

toodlesss

2008-06-26T23:06:00.000+08:00

It's end of the week againnn...... sigh* tmr gotto work again... now i realise wat's called life in Uni.. free from responsibility & adult stress... for the past weeks i have handle few jobs supervised by the art director. And lucky shite me..i pass through all the test & obstacles i faced early on.. sum lil thing i did the client "V" actually like it..lets wait the new "V" got in the market..cant wait for my lil baby being on shelf. and another lucky shite I did on an advertorial for some new brand which gonna be in Harian Metro and Eng papers soon..On fri, i was down graded to Ambient Media lo~ due to the time concern they wanna get rid all the hardcopy datas..yea.. i was into the data entering stuff for the half day.and it going be continous for 2 more days till it's done...darn sien i tell u super sien i tell u..there's no LOW songs..no clubbing songs open out loud like in studio.. studio is crazy & free place to b. U can eat u can sing, u can surf, u can play football@#!@ i'm not kidding ya.. End of the day i bump up to my creative director. he asked me how's down ther.. +.+ boring siao! my eyes goes in one fine line i tell u.. -.- he told me talk to my traffic manager & get me bec up.cuz i got jobs! Terrific !yet terrified.. wonder wat challenges again i nid to catch.. bring it on.. bring it on...

Yesterday dear brought me to Mid Valley thought going for the movie "Wanted"..looking foward for it.. but the tickets were sold in every cinemas..not a single one selling nice viewable, comfort seat.

Nvm ...

So i went find dad instead, when i reach his shop, his worker said he bec dy.. woottt...

Nvm ...

so we took sum pics infront dad shops

We bought sum nice clothes in Zara.. super cheap i tell u.. super cheap...

i tot of going to MNG too but.. MNG owiz have the wacky ppl digging up clothes like as nonit to pay =.= so i kinda doesnt like MNG much dy..

we were bec and got changed! showing off each other stuff..

silly thing price tag still on ler...

kinda reversing my story haha.. tis happens b4 mid valley..we went to Jaya 1 and had our early dinner at Sun Wong.. i like the food here.. very tasty indeed....

we were laughing and non stop teasing the waiter with no teeth infront.. we dun meant it!!! but v juz cant help ourself haha.. dear asked him wat drink is nice, i asked him whether the ice blended red bean nice anot..cuz i super red bean fans in HK restaurant..or else my second choice goes to Jasmine tea.. bec to the story... the waiter said he like the red bean drink vr much ooo.. he said vr tasty oo.. den i asked my dear seriously.. izzit he drink the red bean blended oftenly tat ended up his front teeth gone? we both laugh for many reasons..too many stupid thoughts.. when the drink arrive we both pushing the drink back n forth for who to try 1st..he again warn me. drink dy teethless oo.. wt..*gulps..

the tasty fried xo seafood rice..superb nice...

chic chop w/ spaghetti
emm..mayb more of the pepper sauce will do better..the king has complaint it dy

he's going to shite...and he did..kid's dun learn.. he is under my guidance..so it's safe.
the sweet note he wrote me..

day b4 we went to cui cui sui @ ss2 yumcha..

bad noodle.. sichuan with fried chic..dun try..

day day day b4 on thurs

THURSDAY IS OUR BAD DAY!

we went to HP centre at damansara

look my dear took me tis and gave me lol.. silly yet sweet..even the counter gal was smiling at us..

cawhore while waiting turns

He driving a huge car today.. wonder y? scrolls down for ans..

i love tis car but it's hard to climb up in nice manner :P

here comes the ans...

his Swift was break in by the suspected cars who park infront us when we got down to Tmn. Midah MAYBANK. just to warn you all.. dn ever park at the lorong.. even it's daylight.. wat so ever..it happens so fast...

they stole the smart tag, touch & go and his donald duck cd pouch with lotsa nice songs..=.=

wt.. taii mm hei my printer... they din took it lo..
my seat has occupied by glasses
we rushed t the balai at Maluri..

=.=

useless reports..

the crime rates will juz raise high.. the petrol price oso raise..the elec oso naik.. semua naik.. the government syok raising up prices..death toll oso raise sooner.. all suicide..

here i must say that he super calm handling problems.. super steady.... i really feel darn sorry cuz bcoz of me wanna go to bank his car。。。 Den he keep call me dun worry.. dun b afraid.. non stop calling me to watch for the glasses..dun hurt myself ... love when u cares..

day b4 on wed...lunch at a fancy restaurant ,decanter @ damansara heights.

a farewell to adeline

bobby up; maria below
my helpin partner
maria and lady boss

dicky, william, eve

bj next to me..

bec to office.. choc cakes again..since i enter tis company.. i ate alot choc cakesssssssss!

how to shake the excess fats on??

tell me..tell me....

dear... deepest condolences to ur grandfather.. b happy

2008-06-26T01:00:00.001+08:00

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2008-06-26T00:33:00.000+08:00

I am setting up my own e- boutique soon...

basically i wud b selling my precious thing which i wanna let go as well as brand new stuff to b share...

but yet it's still under constructions..

my schedule kinda pack.. & it's kinda time consuming...

nyway..

Stay tune for more updates ^^

U wait u wait..

2008-06-24T02:01:00.001+08:00

lalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Im Yours - Jason Mraz

2008-06-24T01:48:00.000+08:00

i miss him soo much

2008-06-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

He is my boy and my date for my sweet weekends.. ^^

Sweet dear with me in Pavilion

my most love

he is about phoning me..

ride with me...
my silly thing..teehee..

sunny day...

bien jui version of us..

c clearly.....

find any similarity between us?
and him.. he is the panda guy!

the best thing to do when he was busying his driving & i'm busyin my camwhoring

i'm not gonna leave him out of my cam too ^^ imagine us camwhoring while driving.. v r classified dangerous driver... *i mean him..

my best place to rest on

teehee.. censored###

i heart him so much

am i hemsem?

he bully me !
i cant lose out too :X

i miss him soo much

asian cafe

after cocobanana

we were on msn.. i promised him ...

2008-06-19T03:35:00.001+08:00

i miss him

2008-06-19T03:33:00.001+08:00